i knew you most for one day

I knew you in a way
Confidently, the most 
At least one day
Because I memorized
While he ignored you 
To hurt you,
But I memorized 
And you hated me 
When he didn’t ignore me 
And you scraped your outsides off to let him see inside you 
And I foolishly tried to catch your pieces when they fell
And their weight crushed both of us 
And your weight crushed both of us
And you hated me for it.
And I hated you for that. 
I wish I still hated you for that 
But as one would suspect, it was easier before

I am certain, without a doubt in my mind that I know you deeper and more sincerely than any other soul 

I  idolized your favorite things
I took note of my words I had used every time you laughed 
I obsessed over all possible solutions to mend what made you cry 
I hummed the breaths you took in perfect time 
I memorized the tune of  your heartbeat 

Your smile is forever ingrained in my mind
Your worries will never leave my train of thought
Your taste could never leave the tip of my tongue and the back of my throat 
Your voice will never cease ringing in my ears
Your deepest secrets will never escape beyond my lips 
While he ignored you 
To hurt you,
I memorized. 
And you didn’t even notice. 
Best case scenario.